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This is my 984th post since I began blogging in January of 2008. Most people wouldn't think to comment on such an odd number, but rather focus on a milestone such as 1,000. But this morning I saw that little number and thought, wow. Things have changed in the last four years.

When I first began blogging we had been living in the castle for about a month. My goals back then were to be a cross between June Cleaver and Betty Crocker with a little Martha mixed in. [I didn't know who Paula Dean was at the time or I'm sure she would have been included.]

Now, I am months from the big 40. Life has sped up. The kids are busy in school (*sigh* constant worry with FJ - he puts in the effort but he struggles in some subjects) and extra curricular activities and I feel like I'm rarely home enough to polish the castle like in the old days.

I've gone from housekeeper to freelance writer to now part time substitute, chauffeur, and over-achieving reader. I've gone from a 6:30 a.m. routine to a 4:30 a.m. routine that gives me the pleasure of extra time each morning but leaves me drained come Friday afternoon.

Some mornings I sit here and think I'd like to just play hooky. Other mornings I'm an obnoxious bundle of optimism and joy bouncing around the house.

As much as I do and get done I am consciously aware of all that I could still do or didn't get done. Like the laundry cart that is staring at me while I piddle my time clicking away up in here.  The things and people that get neglected along the way. In the end I have to tell myself that it is what it is and I remind myself to be sure I'm enjoying this rat race as I continue to spin my little wheel. Otherwise, what was it all for, right?

My mind plays various renditions of 'Don't Worry, Be Happy' and 'Red, Red Wine' as the background elevator music of my life. I have a really good life and I'm very blessed. And counting the blessings is what makes it all worth it.

So with that, I'm going to whistle my way through the day - leaving you with this:



[There could be worse songs to have stuck in your head, right?] :-P Happy Tuesday!

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